ishhh ... mengerikan sungguh bile teringat mimpi malam tadi ... nak tau ape saye mimpi tadi ? ... hmmm ... saye mimpikan EX-BOIFREN saye ... bolehhhhh ???
kalo EX-BOIFREN sebelum2 chenta ati saye takpelah jugak ... * jangan mara biebie ! * ... ni tak ... saye mimpi EX-BOIFREN saye yang da saye tinggalkan dalam 3 tahun lepas ... uikkkk ... apekah tanda mimpi ni ??? ... oh tidakkkkkkkkkkk ...
saye ni da la dok susah giler dulu nak tinggalkan die ... kunun sebab sayang la ... * mungkin ! * ... iyer ... btol la ... bile da sayang ni ... kite akan jangan leka ... huk huk huk ...
saye leka ngan die sampai 7 tahun beb ... tapi ape yang saye dapat ? ... saket ati okeyh ! ... kalo ingat balik ... kalo jumpe die ... mahu saye kasi sepak terajang sekalik ... bolehhhhh ??? ...
da la mimpi saye jumpe die la ... siap mintak tolong die la pasal sumthing dalam mimpi tu ... ade ke patut ???? ... sudahnye pagi tadi ... saye dok termenung dalam shower dok teringat mimpi tu ... huk huk huk ...
kenape imej die harus muncul dalam mimpi saye ... saye tak rela okeyh ! ... nak kate menci tu ... takdelah samapai ke situ tapi saye memang tak suke tetibe imej die muncul ... punyer la bertahun sayer nak luper ... bile da dapat luper and da hepi ngan life saye sekarang ... tup2 ... imej die muncul kembali ... oh tidakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk !!!
sejak saye tinggalkan dier berkurun tahun dahulu ... saye memang tak amek tau langsung da ... malas da nak amek tau or saye yang akan saket ati nanti ... bende last skalik saye tau ... die memang totally lost bile saye tak carik die lagi ...
i still remembered that day ... the day that i left him ... he fucking shocked when i told him that i wun bother him at all and no more coz i have feel hurt enuff for years ... i had tried my best to give him the happiest thing ... i gave him love ... i gave him future ... i gave him my shoulder on everythings that make him sad ... i gave him my best to make he happy but years after years ... i get tired ... tired to feel pain and hurt all nyt long ... until one day ... i decided to leave him wether that time he told me that he would asked his mother to proposed me thru my family ... oh noooo ... no wayyyyyy !!!
i've stopped him ... coz that time ... i realized that i dun love him nemore ... i dun care bout him nemore ... i dun bother him either ... i dun know why but that it was i felt ... so ... i have to stop everything ... no more relationship ... i want to have a new life ... life that im looking for ... yessssss ... and i still remembered ... it was in Penang ... i told him that i dun want to be his gud fren nemore ... coz i dun think so that we could be a gud fwes coz i've been his beloved one before ...
when i've told him ... i walk away from him ... i did not look back at him either ... even my tears fall down on my face ... i know that i have to be strong ... so, i walk away and straight going home and ... once i reached home ... i felt so free ... i felt that i could breath well that its been a long time i never felt that way ... even that time my phone keep ringing by him but i dun bother and i know ... ALLAH heard my pray ... ;)
now, im hepi with my life now ... im hepi for what i have right now ... im hepi coz i had met MY MAN ... THE MAN that i love the most in this world ... * u know who u are biebie ! *
oh ... nightmare ... pliss go away ... i dun want to dream of him nemore ... no more plisss !!!
* sile berambus ! dun u ever bother me ... both : my life or my dream ! *
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